I called my parents to let them know I hate this school as much as it is possible for me to hate something.

They'll let me change rooms, but they might make me pay up to $500.

Ugh.

My mom wasn't there, but my dad told me that she had bought him some multivitamins that really helped with his depression.

That was the good news.

It seems like my family gets on a lot better without me.

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I'm looking at THIS again. It seems so peaceful.

Just like this:


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I keep thinking about walking. Not dying. Just walking.

I'll do it when I get home.

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I've been awake for about thirty three hours if you don't count that half hour nap that was supposed to be sleep but which was interrupted by the fire alarm. At least I think it was half an hour? Maybe twenty minutes? Maybe less.

Ha... ha...

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"Typically a person is depressed over a long time; he goes to a psychiatrist and after some psych workshop procedures it's decided he needs an antidepressant. Classically, Elavil is prescribed. Elavil takes three to eight weeks to work, and an average of four weeks. The person may not be told clearly enough or may not want to hear that the drug takes a long time. Two weeks later he bolts upright and says, 'This is the biggest crock of shit,' and swallows the rest of them."

I don't know whether reading about suicide makes me feel better or worse.

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My mom flew here for my spring break, so I stayed in her hostel room for a few days.

It was pretty tiny.



The area it's in has a lot of little grocery stores and things, which was nice. We went to one called Barzini's and it was fun to look around... they had agave nectar.


Some interesting statues in a park or something.

All of the statues had broken noses.

We went to the Metropolitan at... some point. This was my favorite room.




A.... well endowed mannequin.


And here is another one!


I could smuggle stuff inside this bagel. :0


My mom wanted to check out Coney Island, but it's too early for it to be open I guess. We ended up going to the aquarium instead.


I guess I've been spoiled by the Monterey Bay Aquarium, but man, the New York one kinda.... was eh. A lot of the tanks were pretty dirty, and several of the exhibits were not fully open. It was somewhat disappointing.

ALSO, the walruses weren't there! D:

Meh, I wish I were at home. I'm tired of this place.

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"You're going to be nineteen. Wow."

"Not necessarily."

"What do you mean, 'not necessarily'?"

"I think it's kind of obvious what I mean."

"So, nineteen. Does that seem old to you?"

"I already feel old. I've felt old for awhile now."

"Ah."

It depends on how you judge age.

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...If I were schizophrenic?

I think it would be exciting.

That'd be great.

I don't know if I hear things that aren't there. I don't think so. He asked me anyway.

But how can I know what's real, honestly?

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People react to my hat. :P

I've thus far had several people ask me where I got it, and many more have complimented me on it.

There were also a lot of stares and pointing fingers and whisperings going on. Heh.

Can't post pictures here because I'm staying in a hostel with my mom. Later, maybe.

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I DID.

My bedding was all in Saeedah's room, and it turned out that she wasn't here last night. I banged on her door, texted her, and knocked on the RA's door to see if she could let me in the room, but to no avail. What that meant for me was sleeping in my day clothes in the lounge on an uncomfortable chair while a bunch of people around me studied furiously.

It felt like a baby step in the transition to being a hobo. Now I just have to move on to sleeping on the floor, then on a bench outside, and maybe even in a cardboard box eventually.

I'm not really upset about the whole incident, although I do wish it hadn't happened. I guess I can count this as one of my college "adventures".

It's kinda nice right now... I have the whole lounge to myself. I assume everyone went home for Spring Break.

I'm bored with the internet.

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