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You're unsure if I am a loose end or a strand
that waits for you to mend or understand
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"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness."
~ D.H. Lawrence

"Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?"

"Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost."
~ Seneca

"People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect."
~ Daydream Nation

"All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death."
~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes

"The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road."
~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita

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Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Thinking about this, just now... I think I might deal with emotions better when I can attach them to physical objects.

For example, I rarely think about the three months I spent writing my first boyfriend while he was in boot camp. I have his letters from that period, stored in my closet, but they're generally subject to that old adage, "out of sight, out of mind."

In some cases it feels like I can't really let some thoughts rest until I have some sort of receptacle to dump them into. Maybe that's why writing out all those things helped me, a few years ago. I needed to get it out into the physical world.

I wouldn't call it expression though, not really. It doesn't necessarily have to do with creation. I just need to have some sort of... symbolic token, I guess? If the emotions in it are bad, I can put it away, and if they're good, well, it doesn't really matter I guess.

Some people put sentiment into certain music, or movies, but that's not really there so much for me. I can listen to "Kiss Me" by Sixpence None the Richer, and it makes me think of sitting in Sports Authority with Ray, but the emotions aren't there. Or well, the emotional memory, perhaps.

For Sentimental Reasons by Various Artists on Grooveshark

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My mom is pushing me to look towards the future, but I feel like I'm withdrawing into the past. I'm remembering all these details from when I was in third grade, and my best friend was a girl named Nicole. We walked to her house after school one day, and I was supposed to walk back home by myself, but I got scared halfway back because I wasn't sure if I was going the right way. I don't think I turned back, since I've always been more afraid of asking for help than wandering around, but I remember standing at the corner of a block, and the house there had a tree on the lawn with one of those plastic kiddie-chair swings, in yellow.

Another time, we had a sleepover at her house, and we were both supposed to be sleeping on the sofa-turned-bed, but the TV was on and she had fallen asleep. I was worried that it was wasting energy, and I couldn't sleep with it flashing at me anyway, so I trying to figure out how to turn it off, but couldn't, so it was making me anxious. It was one of those old sets, the kinds with dials instead of buttons, and had wood paneling instead of plastic. I really wanted to turn it off, but I was afraid to wake her up to ask her...

She lived with her grandparents, because her mom was only sixteen when she had Nicole, but she called them Nana and Papa. Her great grandmother also lived with them, and Nicole told me she was 90.

They always had red licorice in a plastic candy jar with a green lid next to the dining table. I think they had Goldfish too, but I was wary of crackers that weren't in the original packaging.

Remembering these things makes me kind of sad, but I remember so much, all the time.
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Man, i don't remember anything from that long ago. Then again, I've suffered a massive head injury. I wish I could remember those days, when my life was more together, when the only bills you had to worry about were in the form of spaces on a Monopoly board.
» thaitanic on 2012-08-28 10:59:40

That's the next line!
How'd you know?
» middaymoon on 2012-08-29 03:35:40

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