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"When we describe the Moon as dead, we are describing the deadness in ourselves. When we find space so hideously void, we are describing our own unbearable emptiness." ~ D.H. Lawrence "Is the meaning of life defined by its duration? Or does life have a purpose so large that it doesn't have to be prolonged at any cost to preserve its meaning?" "Living is not good, but living well. The wise man, therefore, lives as well as he should, not as long as he can... He will always think of life in terms of quality not quantity... Dying early or late is of no relevance, dying well or ill is... even if it is true that while there is life there is hope, life is not to be bought at any cost." ~ Seneca "People will tell you nothing matters, the whole world's about to end soon anyway. Those people are looking at life the wrong way. I mean, things don't need to last forever to be perfect." ~ Daydream Nation "All Bette's stories have happy endings. That's because she knows where to stop. She's realized the real problem with stories-- if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death." ~ The Sandman: Preludes & Nocturnes "The road now stretched across open country, and it occurred to me - not by way of protest, not as a symbol, or anything like that, but merely as a novel experience - that since I had disregarded all laws of humanity, I might as well disregard the rules of traffic. So I crossed to the left side of the highway and checked the feeling, and the feeling was good. It was a pleasant diaphragmal melting, with elements of diffused tactility, all this enhanced by the thought that nothing could be nearer to the elimination of basic physical laws than deliberately driving on the wrong site of the road." ~ Vladimir Nabokov, Lolita "It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." ~ William Blake Think about it Musicalities! Kill that boredom!
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Jhonen Vasquez's site Overheard in New York Passive Aggressive Notes Submarinechannel.com Superdickery UHpinions Whirled | It never really ends Sunday, April 10, 2016 I'm thinking about getting a natural spectrum lamp for when I move. I haven't tried light therapy before, but the lamp I'm looking at isn't expensive (at least, not at the current sale price), and I'd rather err on the side of caution and wind up with something that doesn't help than not try it at all. I haven't been thinking too much about leaving, at least, not actively... It's kind of in the back of my mind, I guess. I'll need to do more in the coming months to make sure I have support in place for when I go there. When I get there I'll probably check out the counseling services as a precautionary measure. It would be better to already be seeing someone if anything bad happens. We had one bizarrely hot day in the high 80s/low 90s here, and it's been rainy and overcast since then. Feels like depression is setting in. I went to the gym today hoping to keep it at bay, but I'm not fully recovered from being sick and had kind of a bad time on the treadmill. I set my target distance at 5k and managed to run about a mile at an 8:34 pace, but my airways got kind of umm... clogged up, and it was very hard to breathe. I tried to clear my throat with no success, but pushed through and finished the one mile, then walked the rest while watching SciShow videos. Also did a tiny bit of upper body stuff on the weight machines, then hopped on the Stairmaster for awhile... I couldn't finish the workout I set it for, though. :\ I told my therapist that I knew I'd always have depression. Not in the sense that it's always active, but it's always going to be in the background, hanging around for the right conditions. I've been doing better these past few years than I was before, but I'm not naive enough to think I could ever be cured of it. I expect to have it for the rest of my life. Just seems like a fact to me. The choice, then, is to try to manage it as best I can, or not try. But I can't give up. I have to be ever vigilant... And it's tiring, but it's better than being lulled into some false sense of security and being taken by surprise when the next mood hits. And some people, they don't understand at all what it's like. They don't understand the habits and structures I've built in my life to keep this under control. And it's frustrating because it limits things. No, I don't want to hear your argument about why nothing is wrong with suicide, because it may be abstract to you, but that's real to me. You don't understand how dangerous this topic is. Feels like I've built a wall to try to keep a flood out and people are trying to remove the bricks... Anyway... nothing really prompted this. I didn't intend to rant at all when I started this entry. Just have been feeling kind of down and tired and it's difficult. I've been sick for weeks. I don't want to be sick anymore. "Made of Stone" by The Stone Roses. When the streets are cold and lonely And the cars, they burn below me Are you all alone? Are you made of stone? 1 Comments. Wow have I got some catching up so do. Your fun run looks like it was awesome fun! Also, that dress looks pretty, from what I can see anyway. When do you plan to move up here? » LostSoul13 on 2016-04-11 09:12:07
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